When you make a ‘healthy’ dessert it pays not to eat all of it.
I’m talking chia pudding. Combine chia seeds, honey and coconut milk. Leave it in the fridge. Toast some coconut and sprinkle on top. It is divine!!! It’s also over 1,000 calories and makes you feel really sick if you eat all of it. I did over an evening and it brought back all the old feelings. I was feeling a mixture of self hate and doubted myself in this project. So of course this started a cascade of events. I didn’t get my 8,000 steps on Sunday and Monday. I was feeling crappy about myself and life got a little dark for a bit. I need to face it straight on and deal with it. I will not let my head derail my progress.
I analysed my behavior leading up to the chia pudding. The chia wasn’t the root of the problem. It had started over a day before.
Weigh in. I wasn’t happy.
I’m wanting more from myself. I did some good exercise and my food wasn’t too bad. In my mind I’m desiring big numbers. My expectation vs reality are completely different and I’m not processing it well. If I did everything on the TIFFXO program or even attempted to combine good food and exercise I would lose bigger numbers.
I believe losing weight at a slower rate is better for me long-term. Although getting those BOOM! losses are so motivational and deeply gratifying. I’ve done it super fast before. You can see where that left me. It didn’t stay off forever, that’s a hint.
What do the experts typically say:
Don’t get hung up on the numbers.
I have an absolutely terrible memory but if you ask me what I weighed when and how much I had lost it’s imprinted in the memory bank. Not exactly healthy and a tad obsessive.
This is all a process of detaching myself from the focus on my weight and more about how my health improves and seeing the change in my shape. I’m so far hung up on the numbers I don’t know if I could not weigh myself.
To change my habits and encourage a mental shift I am going to stop hopping on the scales and start taking measurements instead. This Friday I will have my last weigh in until the end of the month. Wish me luck, I think I’ll have to get Dan to hide the scales from me.