Posted in For the love of food, For the love of the body, Goal Setting, Just Me, Personal Development, Positivity, This is MY YEAR

Public service announcement!

When you make a ‘healthy’ dessert it pays not to eat all of it.

I’m talking chia pudding. Combine chia seeds, honey and coconut milk. Leave it in the fridge. Toast some coconut and sprinkle on top. It is divine!!! It’s also over 1,000 calories and makes you feel really sick if you eat all of it. I did over an evening and it brought back all the old feelings. I was feeling a mixture of self hate and doubted myself in this project. So of course this started a cascade of events. I didn’t get my 8,000 steps on Sunday and Monday. I was feeling crappy about myself and life got a little dark for a bit. I need to face it straight on and deal with it. I will not let my head derail my progress.

I analysed my behavior leading up to the chia pudding. The chia wasn’t the root of the problem. It had started over a day before.

Weigh in. I wasn’t happy.

I’m wanting more from myself. I did some good exercise and my food wasn’t too bad. In my mind I’m desiring big numbers. My expectation vs reality are completely different and I’m not processing it well. If I did everything on the TIFFXO program or even attempted to combine good food and exercise I would lose bigger numbers.

I believe losing weight at a slower rate is better for me long-term. Although getting those BOOM! losses are so motivational and deeply gratifying. I’ve done it super fast before. You can see where that left me. It didn’t stay off forever, that’s a hint.

What do the experts typically say:

Don’t get hung up on the numbers.

I have an absolutely terrible memory but if you ask me what I weighed when and how much I had lost it’s imprinted in the memory bank. Not exactly healthy and a tad obsessive.

This is all a process of detaching myself from the focus on my weight and more about how my health improves and seeing the change in my shape. I’m so far hung up on the numbers I don’t know if I could not weigh myself.

To change my habits and encourage a mental shift I am going to stop hopping on the scales and start taking measurements instead. This Friday I will have my last weigh in until the end of the month. Wish me luck, I think I’ll have to get Dan to hide the scales from me.

Author:

Hi! I'm Kate, I hail from Melbourne with my three loves, Willow, Matisse and my husband Dan. I enjoy staying active, attempting to be crafty, discovering new recipes and fun things to do with my daughters. I have found that becoming a mum has tapped in to this raw positive energy that I never knew I had. In this weird new world I live in I've found that I need to look after myself more to keep myself healthy and be a positive role model for the littler ones. Keeping this in mind has kept me on track to create the best me and be a better Mum. Well it's a work in progress but we all need to aspire to something right? I am also a writer, chugging away at that elusive novel but now is the time people. I am writing and you get to hear all about it, just joking, I won't bore you with that. If you want to know where I'm at please feel free to ask it might give me a boot to get me going in my less motivated of moments. I'm passionate about women's rights, equality, children's rights and mental health. I want to say social justice as a whole but it is so broad. I believe we all have the right to be the best that we can. I look forward to getting to know you all and sharing my crazy life.

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