My usual routine, I look in the mirror or can’t find anything to wear. It’s time to lose weight. My reality, I would get super depressed about nothing fitting anymore and having zero energy. Dan and I usually amp up the grump factor at this stage and then I know it’s time to look at my situation.
Everyone has different trigger points but for some reason I would go and do the same thing and end up with the same result. Not reaching my goal. Over the last couple of years I have improved substantially by changing my mental attitude to weight loss. Now it’s a healthy lifestyle and I’m working on my nutrition. It sounds nicer than exercise and calorie counting doesn’t it? Nutrition became more important to us when we stopped eating meat and then again when Matisse came along. It all seemed to fall in to place and for once in my life if I wasn’t dieting my weight didn’t end up skyrocketing. That horrible cycle through my teens and 20’s I would rather forget. Add in the binge drinking along with the eating you could imagine my mental state wasn’t fabulous. I wasn’t happy. My body definitely wasn’t happy.
I want to be happy. I want to be healthy. I want to be active. I want to live a long life with my family.
Although I have had a shift in my mental attitude to a healthy lifestyle and it’s importance I haven’t been able to overcome my weight issues. It’s frustrating, why do I have to worry about all this?can’t I just be skinny? well Kate, not that many people are just skinny. They have a balanced attitude to life. I’m going to work on that balance by delving in to the psychology of losing weight.
As we were trying to conceive Willow I accessed a therapist through my doctor. You can get a few discounted sessions if you get a referral. My interest in this process was ignited after watching ‘Hack Live’ talking about ‘Body Obsession’. There was talk about something I found all too familiar Binge Eating Disorder (BED). I seemed to be ticking too many of the boxes and it was confirmed after meeting with the therapist.
Looks like I’ll be working just as much on the inside as a I will on the out.