Forty two weeks
and twenty one hours
Forty two weeks and one day. Twenty one hours of the longest wait of my life, the end traumatic as her heart rate dropped and needing a bit of air to get that first breath those seconds seemed like hours. Then I met her, the squishy bloody mess.Those eyes pierced through my heart with a look of love I had never known before I knew her Dad was going to be in trouble. He gets a good look in now but that gorgeous baby before me was captivating and all-encompassing. I was so fortunate and relieved to receive my Mum card! It took about a month before I stopped wondering when they were going to take her off me. It seemed to good to be real and too unreal to last forever.
Two years and seven months later as she lay fast asleep in her bed, still unreal and still proving to be a wonderfully disastrous fun drama filled mess as we explore toddler hood.
To my Mum, Dan’s Mum, my sister and my four sister-in laws and to all my mum friends out there Happy Mother’s Day!!! You are all amazing with very fortunate kiddies and thank you for helping me so incredibly as I navigate through this wild ride.
I got to spend a few special days with you last week but as you are in Sydney I wanted you to know a few things.
Sometimes we fight it and it takes years to realise but it is now that I see you.
You are my protector
The first person I think of to call if something goes wrong
I feel half empty if I don’t speak to you for too long
You are a part of me
And now that I have had a child I can see how special that is
Your endless love saw me through
Simple things that as a kid I could not see
But now Mum, I see you
I will love you forever and pour you cups of coffee until you say no more.
Thank you to my amazing husband who helped Matisse to make this day so lovely and made me feel like a Queen for a day xx