My head is dizzy, I can’t stop it. The world is whirring by and I have been feeling as if I can’t keep on top of everything. I stop every now and again and realise my head is thumping, the pressure builds and I feel a little strange. I do the usual, have I eaten? Yup, have I drunk enough water? Yup, Have I had enough sleep? The answer is always no so there shouldn’t be a difference there. I am feeling this way because I am anxious, I have put a bit on my plate and I’m super happy about that but the level of anxiety that comes along with that has increased.
Last night I hit my peak, busy day at work, caught up with a few friends during the day. I was effectively on the go all day. I pick up Matisse from child care, the bag full of dirty clothes, more washing and then she adds the car seat to the washing load on the way home. It’s such a normal day but I add to that MummaKate, my book, the new course I am doing and trying to be healthy I’m on overdrive. I’m trying to read and sort through some pod-casts to help my writing but that is on the bottom of the pile. I checked my letter box yesterday and happily pulled the Marie Claire out only to glance at the front cover and add it to the three that I am yet to read. I contemplated a different subscription and laughed at myself. WHEN would I read it?????
There I was covered in bags and wee, Matisse hanging off me somewhere so I let go and poured myself a drink. I’m more the binge drinker (not a good thing) I tend not to have a drink or two as it more often ends up being a bottle or more. I’ve become better with age but I still get myself in trouble. I’ve had chats with other Mum’s who guarantee life is better with at least one drink at the top end of the day. I joined the gang last night and just that one drink made my life so much easier for the marathon of cleaning the kitchen, doing the washing, packing the dishwasher and making her dinner in the hour between home and bath. Dan came home and helped with the latter, the highlight of my day… and made me a salad. Kudos to him for getting me to the finish line, now stop those dirty minds. We finished the day on a high note.
Today Matisse had her first dance lesson, super cute and lots of fun. She did what the teacher asked and before we knew it the class had gone. Now sleeping peacefully and giving me a good writing break tomorrow is another first. We’re off to swimming lessons and then a mini break. Time to read and unwind a little. Life isn’t so bad after all.
I hope you all have a spectacular weekend