When I got pregnant with Matisse the world went in to slow motion as my vision was impaired by a rose coloured filter. It revolved
around feeling sick, feeling weird and crying about EVERYTHING! I
was so happy to be pregnant that none of the yucky stuff mattered.
After the baby was born the sleep deprivation kicked in, my brain
and my ambition gave me notice. They completely resigned and I was left a body, a big old feeding machine.
I went back to work when Matisse was sixteen months old. I needed
to claim a little bit of me back and be a bit challenged. Initially I was full of ideas and driven to maximise my time at work but it
wasn’t long before it was obvious to me that working two days a
week wasn’t getting me anywhere.
It started to affect me and my confidence dipped. I was dreading
going to work. I felt so torn, between Matisse and a job that quite frankly wasn’t challenging me and rather than getting that little
bit of me back I was feeling more lost than ever before.
Dan on the other hand was going great guns career wise. I was
playing the supportive wife role and talking him up to my Mum when he turns to me and says ‘You can still be amazing’. My facial
response was priceless, I’m far too used to my husband being
sarcastic. But instead he gave me the biggest tool to empower
myself, self-belief ‘I can still be amazing’.
In my 20’s it was ‘I’ll always be fabulous’ but now I’m moving for bigger and better. Every day I say this to myself and each day I say it my ambitions are building higher and higher.
What is your amazing? How does it look to you? Now with the New
Year coming on ever so rapidly it’s the perfect time to make those first few steps. Each year I take it like it’s a clean slate, a
time to start fresh and get inspired.
I decided to look at work on a smaller scale and build skills
within my current role. Now that is looking to change completely in 2016 and I’ll be more challenged again. My being amazing isn’t
about fireworks or becoming a new me, it’s all about maximising my current life which I am happy with.
I have started writing again and am building my blog MummaKate.
Next year is going to go to a whole other level. I’m going to
complete my novel, even if I have to glue myself to the chair. I’ll also be working towards making the blog more interactive. Most
importantly I’m going to make the most of this life, we only get
one go at it after all. I’m going to take the amazing and run with it.
Thank you so much to all who are following my blog, you are driving me to write more and follow my passions. The biggest gift of all.
I hope you have an incredible Christmas with lots of fun, love and laughter and that 2016 brings you all of
the happiness in the world.